4.4.17--Another Surf Day

The surf gods have been smiling on the west coast of Florida lately and Aaron and Sawyer couldn't be happier.  I was getting texts from Sawyer during the day, begging me to pick him up and take him surfing.  Of course, I didn't do that, the waves weren't that good, but they did hit the beach immediately after school.  Nova and I headed down there too which I wish we wouldn't have done.  I didn't realize how much homework she had and I was grumpy and irritable trying to help her get through it.  It was nice to be on the beach and fun to watch Sawyer and Aaron surf but I need to be more careful with my time.  If I spend time playing when I really need to be working, I end up getting very stressed out.  I need to be careful with the balance.

Work was a uneventful today.  I sent in a draft of something I had been working on for far too long.  I went on a nice walk with Mary (although it was hot!) and I got organized for the rest of the week.  We grilled up some burgers for dinner and Sawyer tried the ever-hyped Beyond Meat burgers (veggie burgers that bleed).

I wasn't hungry for dinner though as I had been really bad about the Whole 30 today.  Day 10 always is the hardest for me.  Tomorrow, I will start over on Day 11 (I am not starting back on Day 1 as the program insists) but I am not giving up either.  I already feel super bloated and thirsty from eating the chic patties and drinking honey sweetened lemonade today.  I would really like to get back to how I had been feeling--which was a bit lighter and like I was actually accomplishing something.  Tonight, I just feel yucky and realize I lack will-power.   Tomorrow will be better.

I need to focus on treating Nova a bit more tenderly.  She has such a tough girl attitude that I feel I can say things to her in a way that I wouldn't say to Sawyer, nothing mean or hurtful, but I was really irritated with her today and her lack of studying.  I really hope my words didn't do some deep damage to her psyche.  She is my sweet baby, my little angel, my partner in crime----I love her more than words.