The surf gods have been smiling on the west coast of Florida lately and Aaron and Sawyer couldn't be happier. I was getting texts from Sawyer during the day, begging me to pick him up and take him surfing. Of course, I didn't do that, the waves weren't that good, but they did hit the beach immediately after school. Nova and I headed down there too which I wish we wouldn't have done. I didn't realize how much homework she had and I was grumpy and irritable trying to help her get through it. It was nice to be on the beach and fun to watch Sawyer and Aaron surf but I need to be more careful with my time. If I spend time playing when I really need to be working, I end up getting very stressed out. I need to be careful with the balance.
Work was a uneventful today. I sent in a draft of something I had been working on for far too long. I went on a nice walk with Mary (although it was hot!) and I got organized for the rest of the week. We grilled up some burgers for dinner and Sawyer tried the ever-hyped Beyond Meat burgers (veggie burgers that bleed).
I wasn't hungry for dinner though as I had been really bad about the Whole 30 today. Day 10 always is the hardest for me. Tomorrow, I will start over on Day 11 (I am not starting back on Day 1 as the program insists) but I am not giving up either. I already feel super bloated and thirsty from eating the chic patties and drinking honey sweetened lemonade today. I would really like to get back to how I had been feeling--which was a bit lighter and like I was actually accomplishing something. Tonight, I just feel yucky and realize I lack will-power. Tomorrow will be better.
I need to focus on treating Nova a bit more tenderly. She has such a tough girl attitude that I feel I can say things to her in a way that I wouldn't say to Sawyer, nothing mean or hurtful, but I was really irritated with her today and her lack of studying. I really hope my words didn't do some deep damage to her psyche. She is my sweet baby, my little angel, my partner in crime----I love her more than words.
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