I know I have many reasons to be happy but sometimes it is hard to see them all. The whole point of this journal is to have a place for a writing meditation on gratitude. I am hoping that by writing things out I can reflect and resolve issues internally and externally. As a whole today wasn't a bad day. I worked and feel I accomplished what I needed to "at the office". It feels good to move things off of my desk.
I spent time with the kids. Granted most of it was in car rides to and from the bus and then activities, but I tried to remain present and hear the stories of their day. I was with Sawyer at CrossFit when he did his first open workout. I served as his counter and was so inspired by his will to keep going. The workout was crazy tough and he just kept on. I loved the sounds of the rest of the gym cheering him on and his glances over at me for encouragement now and then. I did get a short walk in which was the most I was willing to do in order to avoid another severe coughing fit. Right now, I am aiming for a workout on Wednesday, albeit a small one. I am hoping I will be feeling better by then.
Things continue to be rough with Aaron. Important tasks are falling through the cracks on the home and business front. Our relationship is suffering and he is using his very typical strategy, avoidance. As things pick up for the business, I know this will only get worse. We have gone through these patterns before. I am really going to work towards compassion and finding some sort of counselor that guides husband and wife business teams. It is such a tricky dynamic.
My evening was lovely though. I made dinner with whatever I could find because I really don't want to go grocery shopping. Sawyer and I sat around and watched part of the Voice until he got bored and then Nova and I watched some more. I love my kids.
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