Again, I am floundering in my attempts to write here on a daily basis. Is it writers block or just poor time management? I seem to think that if I had something that I felt compelled to put on paper–I would make the time. My intentions are good but by 10:00 pm just want to lay in bed and stretch out—watching HBO on my phone. In the morning, my plans to get up early to write are put off by my hitting the snooze button over and over again. Once I hit my office, I have no time to write for pleasure and the day flies by. The next thing I know, it is CrossFit, dinner, and homework and then it is 10:00 pm again. Maybe things will slow down when the kids are out of school for the summer. OMG! I CANNOT WAIT FOR SUMMER TO BEGIN!
I am home now with Nova who is sick and sleeping. I have a little bit of time to write.
Here is a partial week summary update of what we have been up to and what I am particularly grateful for.
Sunday: Nova and I spent the whole day (after lots of morning homework) shopping. We were shopping for her gymnastics banquet and a wedding but we found nothing. We left empty handed after hours of looking. In a rush she ordered a dress online, paying extra for express shipping and crossing our fingers that it would arrive in time. I had dropped Sawyer off with Aaron at the tunnels because his teenage mood was not very fun to be around and went back down to grab him and go to the beach. Sawyer, Nova and I swam and enjoyed the beautiful weather. It was great until their bickering started. Not sure how my parents dealt with the constant bickering between siblings but there has to be a way to get it to stop. We went to Whole Foods for a few things, including pre-made dinner and then headed home to get ready for the week.
Monday: A lot of this morning was spent dealing with a reporter who wanted to do a story on the kids because they caught their bus driver (and filmed) using his phone while driving. Sawyer, Areesh and Natalie had tried calling the department of school transportation and had been blown off. So, they sent the video clip to the media. I felt the kids presented themselves well on camera and the news guy complimented them for being so articulate and well-spoken. I am proud of them for standing up for what they think is right and I hope they are kind but firm to the bus driver. After a full tele-work day, Sawyer and I went to CrossFit and then our regular Target trip. I bought Nova a few new dresses to wear to the banquet tomorrow, just in case the dress she ordered didn’t show up in time. Trying hard to be organized! It wasn’t my watch week but I snuck in to practice to see Nova doing her back tucks, over and over again! She has it and looks great!
Tuesday: This morning as I was getting ready, I checked my email to find out what time we had to be at the banquet…..5:30pm. BUT not tonight, NEXT WEEK! It was such a relief because I didn’t really want to wear the dress that I have and I just wasn’t really excited about going tonight. Now, I have more time to think this over. Back at the office and feeling a bit out of sorts. I have met my deadlines and now there is a little bit of a lull. I organized emails. I started to really look at my calendar and set timelines for future projects. I spent some time making a postcard to send my brother. (BTW, I am in love with my Pipisticks, sticker subscription–more on that another time). Mary and I walked to the coffee shop (had a great iced tea) and then sat by the water to talk. We are discussing a possible business venture but hadn’t seen each other in a few weeks so had other stuff to talk about. I love her ideas and am excited to start to build this with her but worry a little bit about both of our lack of time. Since there was no banquet, I had to go to CrossFit (which was lots of burpees and running). The workout wasn’t actually as bad as I had feared. I am working on changing my mind about burpees. I love them! They are so easy! Let’s do more!
Wednesday: Work from home day with rain and storms–my favorite kind of day to be at home. I am so happy that I tele-worked today because the storms brought a closure to the Skyway Bridge and likely tons of traffic and delays. I got a ton of stuff done and had the whole house to myself while the kids were at school and Aaron was surfing. I am grateful that there are waves for him to surf but don’t understand the whole concept of leaving the house at 11 am and not returning until 8:30 pm and not even trying to reach out. I am working so hard on not letting his behavior trigger me into a bad mood, but last night it was tough. It really is like jedi mind control.
After school, the kids and I went to CrossFit (I asked Nova to skip gymnastics to study) and then home to make dinner and do homework. We have such a routine to our life. I felt great at CrossFit today…was it the maca powder I added to my fruit salad this morning? I was proud of myself for rowing faster than normal, for being able to sort of do rope pulls and for trying out the pegboard thing. I didn’t go very high but I was able to move the pegs a little bit. Nova seemed to be feeling not the best–complaining of a sore throat, wanting to go to bed early–I should have realized that she was coming down with something.
Thursday: I was up all night it seemed. Aaron was snoring, loudly, as he tends to do. Nova was up in the middle of the night with a fever and the dogs seemed to be more active than normal. Oh, and I was hungry. After CrossFit, I didn’t want to eat the pasta the kids were requesting so I just finished up the fruit salad. By 1:00 am, I was hungry.
I feel grateful that I can be home today with Nova. I was reluctant to stay home with her because Aaron surfed for so long yesterday, with not one bit of contact with me for the whole day. I felt that it was his turn to put on the parenting hat and take some responsibility. I also knew there were waves and he wouldn’t get to surf if he had to stay home with her. It was a bit of a resentment play. BUT…I decided to do what I wanted to do—which is to be home with my daughter when she isn’t feeling well. I have a job that allows for flexibility and I am doing exactly what I want to do. Sure, it gives Aaron the opportunity to surf again today but maybe that isn’t a bad thing. I really am working on these baby steps to improve my moods, especially as they relate to Aaron. His actions don’t control my moods.
I am hoping Nova will wake up soon and will be feeling a bit better. We can head to the beach to check out the waves. If not, I have been more inspired to work on recipe development and photos lately. Maybe I can spend some time on that today. Tonight, Sawyer has a band concert which I have been looking forward to for months. He is hoping to get in a part of a CrossFit class before heading to the concert…….he is so dedicated. I wish I had his willpower. Learning from my kids…..always learning.
Life is good!